run-out : a personal rant by heather yegge

i've hit that moment. that instant where all you want is to just be home with your parents and siblings and just talk to them, just hug them. to be in a controllable environment where i don't have to worry about anything. i can chill, just chill. 


when i'm not studying/READING/writing papers...i'm working, and when i'm not working...i'm sleeping, which is only for a good power hour nap. i think this might be the first time i can actually say i'm exhausted. not exhausted from a day of hard work lifting things, or a day of running around doing errands, not even exhaustion from a day. i'm exhausted from the last two weeks. 


i feel like i never do anything. recently, multiple people have asked me what i do as a hobby or for leisure. my answer: "oh gosh...i have no idea. i don't really do anything." << this right here, this is lame. i wanna start DOING things! i wanna laugh more. i wanna chill more. i wanna do more.  


i really wish i saw more of my friends on campus. it's kind of a rarity. i think most of all i wish they would reach out to me more, but i shouldn't be complaining when i know good and well i need to reach as well. i guess where i'm going with this whole rant is that i'm lacking the feeling of being "wanted" or "needed" right now. hmmm yeah, as dumb as that sounds i can admit it. 


when i think of my parents it almost makes me cry right now. for the longest time i thought i was so independent cause i'm 20 and this is how it's supposed to be. but now i think i finally, at least know how, to appreciate the value of my parents and what they mean to me & what they've done for me. 

the view

might be hard to see, but this is a panoramic view of my room from my bed that i took on my phone. still got some postahs to put up and mass amounts of pictures. :) 

runner's high

took a run around the north end and harbor tonight with allie. man, it has been way too long since i've exercised. i need to start treating my body better. It was nice to just get outta the apartment and feel free. ran about 1.8 miles or so...2 miles if you count the cool-down walk back to the apt. got myself a serious endorphins high! there's nothin' else like it :) 

rollin in dem singles!

4:40 AM alarm this morning. As i got up my heart was filled with excitement and nervousness. It was day two of my training @ Boston Common Coffee. Day one went fairly well as far as i could tell. Now, I was to be rushed with the ever rapid morning rush. Leaving my apartment when it was still dark out was kinda creepy. It was calming in the sense that I was literally the only one walking around, which doesn't happen often in the North End. But then i started freaking myself out cause i realized i was totally alone, in essence i was a prime suspect. Luckily, the coffee shop's not more than three to four blocks away. 


Working seven hour shifts is something i'm still getting used to, but everything's new to me in this situation. I feel like i'm still behind, but i should be. This is only day two. Yes, i'm not gonna lie and say i didn't make any mistakes. i made a ton! but everyone does. i'm human. What was reassuring though were my co-workers. When we got little breaks here and there, when no one was coming in, they kept telling me how well i was doing, and it was definitely nice to hear that.  Everyone has been pretty nice and considerate at the fact that i'm learning. Nothing sucks more then having to work with people you can't get along with. 


Pretty much this is how all my tuesdays and thursdays will look from now on, with weekend shifts every now and again. 5:30 AM - 1:00 PM, wooo bring it! ** funny fact: i get super excited anytime we split up tips throughout our shifts. it's like instant gratification for me. i see the dough i'm making. just today i made $26 in tips alone :) 


i'm going to sleep happy. 

meet dah rommies

me, allie, & antjelina

changing tides

today seemed like a non-stop day: classes on top of classes, meetings on top of meetings. i hardly could get a snack in. figuring out study aboard details is stressful, but at the same time every new detail i'm finding out is getting me all excited. an interesting fact about it >> it seems if i get excepted into the program i'll be gone from january 3 -- may 25! it seems like such a long time, but it means that i'll hopefully be able to travel around Europe a lot. we'll see how things work out come October. 


on another note, i start training for a job i got @ a coffee shop down the street from my apt tomorrow. yeeee, i'm super nervous but i'm really excited because this will be one of my first fo' real jobs, besides xrtainment zone, but i knew literally everyone there and i didn't have the stress of crazy business people wanting their coffee RIGHT THEN RIGHT NOW. gahhh :) 

phew!

these last couple days have been non-stop: driving, unloading, loading (repeat), unpacking, sorting, assembling. luckily, i had my super muscular sister and mom to help me with all my stuff, so it ended up not being as stressful as i thought. minus the fact where we had to drive through the middle of downtown boston and were screaming at each other about whether we needed to be in the left or right lane. bhahah! ;) on the plus, i'm lovin the new neighborhood i'm livin in. it's the north end, which for all my cali friends is like the little italy of boston. i love being so close to school and downtown. 
(pictures will be added soonzies) 


started first day of classes today, and as usual my mind was traveling at an insane speed. i've been noticing more and more that i literally have the worst memory when it comes to important issues in my life. first i walked out the door with my helmet, but no bike. and then when i got my bike out and headed towards class i remembered that i forgot to grab my cellular. ugh, it's like a disease. i need to get my ish together. thank goodness i have ant & allie to continually remind me of things. <3 i had 3 outta 4 of my classes today, and they were all better then i expected. i think this semester's going to be a good one. 


no classes tuesdays or thursdays, so tomorrow i'm off to find a job. keep your fingers crossed for me! 

zombie eyez! 

wait, where'd the summer go?

i can't believe that time as come along again. it seriously seemed like just the other day it was july and i felt like i had a whole two months to bask in the sun. meh, but life goes on! spent the other night (wednesday) with some of my buds still left out here @ red robin. haven't been there all summer so i definitely indulged in their finest whiskey bbq burger ;) i seriously need to set a steady workout regime when i get to boston. i've been a fatty this whole summer. got pretty sad at the end of the night when i had to say my final good-byes, especially to leanne & daniel :( we've hung out so much this summer and they're seriously my best fwiends. imma miss those two crazies. 

then, today was spent running errands, picking up necessities, finally putting my things into a suitcase, and saying my last good-byes....such a sad day. met up with dars & sabrina @ boba tea house and enjoyed one last thai iced tea. we chatted for an hour and it seriously made me miss them already cause they're my rocks. next i headed off to my grandparent's house to finish up a fleece blanket i've been working on and to hang out with them one last time. i seriously love them to death. i couldn't have been blessed with greater g-rents. it was so hard to say good-bye again. 

on the bright side of things this is my finished product! can't wait for my g-ma to send this to me to cuddle up with in my new apt. :)

oh, and now i'm chillin in my room unable to sleep cause i'm so anxious to see allie, ant, and my new apt! + my sister just showed me how to use wax strips and they hurt like a motherf****er. holy smokes, it's painful. i'll be trying to keep this updated as much as possible while i'm gone! niks, dars, leanne + sabrina, come visit me in boston puhhleasse! <3